Of Love and similar things.

Love.
       Yes,
             This ephemral  thing.
Few other indulgences could hold such appeal
for one residing within this realm of humanity.

I would like to feel the substance of this manifestation
of guiding pupose has discretion and rational direcion
in the steps it takes.
I think , on occason, it might appear other wise.

Due to the lack of ratonale one might be inclined
to believe it's impetus lies in the ego and it's asperations,
or the soul with the animus-like need for connection,
perhaps a need for intense interfacing ,
providing a sounding board about which to orient one's self.

Whatever, It could appear the tail is wagging the dog.

What is one to do.
Take hold and see good sense prevail by an exercise of will.

Psychosis ; Orienting ones focus about an exterior autonymous entity.
Perhaps, should the dark side be providing impesus for attraction,
a time may ensue following the honey moon period
resulting in an unhappy penance.

Commitment ; another being as important or,
even more important than ones self.
Their comfort, security and welfare being paramount.

Lust ; The desire to be subtly connected with another.

Passion: An energy interfacing exuberantly.

Compassion: Justification, aleviating guilt.
Are we compasionate when we tend to our own ?
Should we feel compasionate when we tend to another,
A fellow human.
Another of our own.
As i see this situation at the present time, while, maybe one third of our humanity live on less than a dollar a day, there are some accruing many millions.
I feel inclined to believe they would not allow them selves to behave so,
if they had a realistic "down to earth" understanding of the "unhappiness"
others endure for their relatively unlimited comfort and luxurious environs.
After all, such afluence could not prevail without sucking the life from another.
But, then,
There is a food chain after all.
The sorting out of a heirachy.
Where might limits lie.
Where do we abandon achievement,
as we presently understand it,
to persue some thing more mature,
some thing of greater substance.

Fell in love Feb 06 with a lady whom i met over the net.
This woman was utterly beautifull and unambiguously wonderfull.
We married Feb 2 years later.
I had found and engaged with a lady of mutual commitment to persue
a "partnership" being soundly at one with each other.

My lady had 2 "early teens" children who had lived their lives, thus far, without patriarchal influence, and their protective mom determined to negate presenting challenges regardless of determined long term objective, whether behaviourly, socially or in any other facet of life.
My "daughter" 13 yo, managed little more than a grunt for a greeting till only 2 days before she returned to her origin 5 1/2 months later.
In spite of the communication difficulties i felt i was holding the most wonderfull woman in my arms and felt blessed with the priceless opportunity to love her for no other reason but the euphoric state resulting and her presence colouring ones perception and understanding of life.
Surely, it is better to have loved and lost, rather than not to have loved at all.
Perish the thought.
5-June 09. My love and my life has departed me.